- Step one: Wear the pants. I see where my problem began.
- Step two: Say it. You are not needy. You are not needy. Right?
- Step three: Patience. You are the stubborn mule.
I've never been the needy one, so why start now? Today I've decided to wear pants, and I'll wait for you to decide to need me. One day I swear it will be too late though; when I'm strong enough.
I keep telling myself how dangerous it is to rely on someone. Why don't I ever listen? I'm always here in your time of need, but in my time of need, I get through it without you. All I need is returned loyalty, and it's always been too much to ask for.
I look to God, because I know He is faithful when no one else is. He is faithful even when I am faithless. But sometimes all I want is a simple "Goodnight, Katie."
I'll wait up until the early hours of the morning for the call or the message. I can't sleep without it. I'll even forget how stubborn I can be and call you. But why would you answer now, when you never did before?
So I'll put on this façade like I'm only self-reliant and that I don't need anyone else. Because when I truly believe it, you'll probably need me. That is how I survived the war.
Until next time, General.
